P.S...

today i was accepted into the Laguna College of Art and Design. there's no hope for me now.

P.S.S...

generous monetary donations appreciated

it has come to my attention that spike and mike's sick and twisted animation festival is one of the single worst atrocities ever visited upon the animation industry and mankind. it is quite literally shameful to the art form i have basically dedicated my life to. save three or four films, the show was filled with nothing but tasteless and pointless shorts. some dragged on for so long and were so horrible that i actually zoned out and got very bored, which almost never happens to me while watching anything animated. other shorts were honest to god drawings by stoners who would simply paste a frame of an open mouth over the closed mouth on the character, which was still visible on the corners of the open mouth. the people who put this show together obviously had no regard to the quality of picture or substance of the films. as for the shorts that were actually good (john dilworth's mousochist, stubble trouble, whatever that death one was called, and of course don hertzfeldt's billy's balloon), being played next to such terrible films is embarrassing due to the sheer contrast. and happy tree friends... i love it, but that needs to stay on the internet. flash will never be able to give the same whimsical feel that hand-drawn animation gives. ever.

that having been said... if you live in the laguna beach/socal area, go see the animation show in the downtown Laguna theater. coming in several weeks. support some stuff that is actually good.

"the animation show: it's better than spike and mike's, i promise"
--erin

is it dumb that, after i flush some dead ants down the toilet, i am afraid that they might come back to life and bite my ass while i'm peeing?

not writing passion of the christ review like i should be doing. need to take car in for servicing, but need to clean car out first. car so dirty. sand and peanut cookie crumbs everywhere. so, so dirty.

had another bonfire this weekend and the mormon was more volatile with the flames this time. we lit a shoe on fire and he ran down the beach with it. napthaline can almost exploded. only food was marshmallows and that just wasn't very nice. then we went to someone's house and sat in the street while a dog stared at me.

my hair needs to be cut before it eats my face off.

the other day i saw a man who was a construction worker with an orange hat. but upon a closer look, i discovered the hat wasn't a regular construction hat at all, but a FINDING NEMO hat. with little fins and clownfish stripes on it. i also saw a lady wearing a hat with these huge red spikes all over it and it trailed down her back. it looked like she slaughtered somethin' fierce to have the flesh of the beast fashioned into a hat for her to sport like some prize trophy. i almost crashed my car because she looked so cool.

high kicks

many people cannot spell correctly and this annoys me. a whole lot. like, more than you can imagine. but i'm trying to tone myself down a bit and stop judging people so much on their grammatical ability. but... it is very difficult. arrrgh. happy man updated my ipod software for me today because i am too lazy to do it myself. i need new shoes too. i need so many things. what's with all the need i do?

kick kick kick

bomp

very foggy outside. drove home from dinner with a friend and admired the street lights shining from behind the trees, creating a lovely sunray effect.

submitted my final portfolio to laguna college today. although i'm pretty sure i'm already in, there is that little naggy nugget of doubt saying that there is a chance the committee will look at my stuff, wrinkle their noses, and go "meh", and then move on to the next thing. i really don't want that to happen. i'm supposed to hear from them tomorrow to find out if i've been accepted or not...

i don't know what it is about humanity but for the past three weeks i've learned just how many people around me are very close to illiterate. nothing against those people, but... sometimes it amazes me.

also another thing i've learned is that people, as a whole, are very odd and i cannot understand them. they also leak fluids at times, which can be utterly unpleasant as well

need to write a review for passion of the christ. need to draw three cartoons for journalism. need to finish community service mexican flash cards. need to have recommendation letters filled out. need to finish art piece in class. need to do econ homework. need to write poems for english. need to take notes on whales for marine ecology. need to work all weekend. need to draw personal things brewing in my mind. need to buy a new sketch book. need to fix up my current one before it completely falls apart. need to schedule a haircut. need to start working out more. need to stop eating crap (not literally).

there is too much to do.

i freaking hate scholarships. i know i have to get them all done but i hate them SO MUCH that i just don't even want to bother. i am lazy. bloor.

if you were my boyfriend and you just so happened to love cheesecake, i made this and would have given it to you:





but i don't have a boyfriend and probably won't ever so i ate the cheesecake all by myself.

for the records:





largest chocolate strawberry i have ever seen. it is .37 pounds and is worth $6.99. and i dipped it!! ha!! oh god i need a life

so i've been watching the lion king maybe three times a day ever since i read doug tennapel's little review on it. it really IS good and very well written. i like to sit around like a complete dork and analyze it all and point out which parts of the movie are which of the major stages of the traditional hero's journey. i feel so smart when i do that. also, it's nice to think there was a time when disney could make a quality movie and have characters say words like "kill" and there wouldn't be a herd of overprotective soccer moms burning down buildings and eating people alive while they hide their children in locked boxes. "morning report" is an atrocity.

sick sick sick once again. loads of mucus. can't seem to draw anymore. just sketch a bunch of retarded faces and attempting to make something complete. it's not working!! arrrghh!!! i no finish art in months!!

animation show coming to my hometown... steve and i are swollen with pride and very excited. posting flyers is going to be the highlight of my life. i can't wait to see it ten times and then some. I EAT MY EYEBALLS IN PLEASURE

i want to go to the zoo and draw animals.

scar is effeminate and scary.

yay zombies

check THIS out.

that, ladies and gentlemen, is adam levine. he looks like the unholy fusion of kyan douglas and seth green. his music also sounds like jamiroquai and matchbox twenty had a baby. did i not tell you that maroon 5 is amazing?

winter formal this weekend and i excited. lots of dancing going to happen, but that is if i can avoid the recent bout of pink eye my sister has so conveniently developed. grand.

new haircut too. my follicles are brimming with spray-in wax and pomade/wax and hairspray and four different kinds of straightener. it doesn't feel to pretty but it sure can kick your ass sideways. it sticks up so i have an über-psuedo-faux-hawk thing happening. i don't know if it's really that cool or i look like some sort of vegetable bird. i like it though. i think that's what matters.

critic on dvd is now mine to have and hold. it is the good one. best buy can make me angry. i almost thought i ran out of coolant today. and also, i wrote a poem. i don't know if it's finished yet but here it is so far:

Rectal bleeding
I have no phone calls
Heavens to Betsy
Spark plug!

Meat chilling in the cooler
The answer is "green"
Put it behind your legs.
Warm Susan Summers night

Sean Penn frightens me
Elegance to the touch
Raspberry jam pie
Turn around

Sandbag Sunrise
Towering walrus monument
Chicken in a trash can
Take off one sock

rain rain rain rain rain rain rain.

maroon 5 is my new favoritest band in the universe and the lead singer is hot as hell. their video would suck if he wasn't so hot and rolling around in sand the whole time while being so hot.

stuff happened. that's all i'll say.

e out

the first weekend i can drive a car and it's the most uneventful weekend of my entire life.

instead of going out with my friends and doing everything i've always longed for once i could legally get behind the wheel, i find myself driving aimlessly, listening to coldplay very loud while nobody answers their phones and i become very tired, while all of this eventually leads up to me eating my weight in tofu. what i want to know is where the hell everybody went so suddenly.

saw teacher's pet. cute and fun in a spooky sort of way. there are a lot of visual gags in it, most of which involve trees vomiting maple syrup. interesting? definitely. also lots of classic disney movie spoofs. the bird voiced by jerry stiller is the best character. and also... "honey bunny boombox" is the greatest thing to call anyone ever. i hope someday i can call someone i love that and they'll still respect me.

i think i'll pop in zoolander and wait for anyone to call me more than likely after my curfew. wah.

WOW it's been awhile since i've written. so much more crap has been happening and life continues to be an insane whirlwind of events.

recent events, however, have been surprisingly good.

number one: i got my driver's license.

number two:





anyway. new years... going back to school... yeah. it's all what it has been but hectic with a tint of pleasant. driving sure is nice. boy howdy is it nice!!!

i will be very happy when finals are done and scholarships are filled and sent and college interview and portfolio and slide taking and the demolition of the earth is done.

speaking of demolition of the earth, i've picked up hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy again and i forgot how utterly awesome it is. i've been drawing my own renditions of the characters like mad. maybe i will post some soon.

vroom

so christmas came and went before i even got the chance to turn around and go "whuh?" and realize that it happened. but all and all it was good. there is so much i could talk about right now that i've forgotten it all, but i do have a massive amount of pictures of some of the highlights of christmas break 2003 thus far. take a look... there are a lot.





claire and her iced tea. but wait... take a closer look...





reeses brand ice tea! chocolate peanut butter... yum





the underlying messages in malls supporting the use of pesticides...









once again the japanese flaunt their amazing engrish skillz





the magazine that helps your cat cope with his obesity





asse, anyone?





i bought this stuff. it's actually pretty damn good.





fish screams for help!





here's a good one. the other day andrea and i went out and got some food at this place called heidelberg's. i ordered this immense croissant stuffed with ham, cheese, and scrambled eggs. i ate it in a nearby parking lot, and the entire time i kept saying "aw man, i really should have got a fork and some napkins while i was there" because every second that went by the croissant would reach a new height of gooey insane mess. I NEED A FORK, WHY DIDN'T I GET A FORK i screamed. i eventually reached a point of enough and stopped eating the thing because it was such a mess and i just felt dirty. as i put the food back into the bag to be thrown away... i notice something. a small bag. "what's this?" i say. i reach inside and see.... a fork. and a knife. and napkins. i yelled.





that is enough for now, i think.

i hate deviantart.com accounts. haaaate.

first off, the entire community on the site littered by ten to twelve years olds with the drawing power of god bestowed in their little prepubescent fingers. not to mention they claim to love kubrick and scorsese films. TWELVE YEARS OLD, WATCHING KUBRICK FILMS. what the hell was i doing when i was that age? i'll tell you. i was probably sitting the middle of a room, drooling all over myself while i drew stick figure bunnies with my feet. what the hell!?

well, okay. i don't HATE deviantart.com because of the emergence of da vinci-esque youth. and i don't really hate the young artists either. i am just jealous and amazed and stupified and angry. but that's all. the REAL reason why i hate deviantart.com is because so many people use it to put their art online, yet it loads slower than frozen molasses and the whole thing is just a very ugly and complex system which makes me have to force quit my browser whenever i click on someone's gallery. mah.

that was such a nerdy paragraph.

i saw the final chapter of Lord of the Rings last night when i sat down at eleven thirty in the theater. my god, it was incredible. i don't think i need to say much beyond that, because everyone who saw it knows what i'm talking about. jesus. freaking. christ. i don't think i've ever been so wide-eyed and thinking to myself, "OH SHIT OOOOHHHH FUCK THAT'S COOL!!!" more times in any other movie i've ever seen, except maybe for kill bill. but wow. the whole thing was the perfect and most fantastic ending to a trilogy of nothing but goodness!!!! and also i'm in love sam. i don't know why but he was so my favorite. every time he cried, i cried (which was about half of the film). i don't like it when sam hurts. mwaaawwww!!

christmas is drawing nigh and it doesn't even feel like it, especially when it's seventy degrees outside. what the fuck is that. i have no idea.

i wanted to do pictures but i can't seem to upload anything right now. i will have them later, then...

last night i had a dream where i was committed into an insane asylum that was more like some sort of bizarre summer camp. part of it looked like my school and some sort of military base. there was a huge alien spaceship there, too. my english teacher was there yelling at people and he was telling us about how we were supposed to stay in this certain room and watch a movie. suddenly a friend of mine came up to me and told me that the zombie aliens needed their brains back, and the only way to do it was to find the king alien and jab my thumb underneath his chin and kill him, while at the same time popping out his brain. i told my friend that i wasn't sure about his plan, when i saw a box of weird pills. we put water on the pills, and they transformed into giant red/purple brains that littered the ground everywhere. and there was this weird alien corpse on the ground. my english teacher got upset about "the brains being released". the whole dream i was constantly concerned that i wasn't going to make it to work on time the next day, since i was committed and all. i spent a good deal of time on the phone calling my work and my mom, asking if she could break me out so i could get to the chocolate factory the next day.

i thought about it and figured out where certain parts of my dream came from:

• box - the box of unfinished nerve ending from "My Life As A Teenage Robot"
• alien corpse - dead alien from a video game at a friend's house
• military base - base from the aforementioned video game
• spaceship - Nergil's ship from yesterday's episode of "The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy"
• pills - watched some friends play "Dr. Mario" yesterday
• insane asylum/movie/english teacher - recently watched "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" in english class

kinda interesting how you can piece a dream together like that. maybe they really don't have meaning. maybe dreams are just jumbled up shit that is buried in our psyche. eh. i don't feel like thinking about it much right now.

saturday night and there is so much to do, yet i'm doing nothing...

this just in:

DIE GWENYTH PALTROW DIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, it's official. i've listened to david cassidy's "i think i love you" more than a complete forty times in the past twenty four hours, and that's excluding how many times i listened to it on my ipod. i'm just going by itunes' count. the former record holder for most played song was barenaked ladies' "celebrity", with eighteen times over a period of like, three months. i don';t know what it is about this song but i cannot stop listening to it or loving it. it's sort of creepy. hmm!

SLEEP IS MUCH NEEDED BY ME

more post-worthy chatting...

ErinZ (12:03:51 AM): doug was so dirty
ErinZ (12:04:03 AM): he was like twelve but bald
ErinZ (12:04:06 AM): how fucked up is that
Dre (12:04:11 AM): haha
ErinZ (12:04:28 AM): maybe he had cancer
ErinZ (12:04:33 AM): skeeter was definitely retarded
ErinZ (12:04:42 AM): and pattie mayonnaise was a whore and everyone knew it
ErinZ (12:05:11 AM): his neighbor was a child molester
ErinZ (12:05:34 AM): his sister was a thespian lesbian
ErinZ (12:05:50 AM): does no one see the dark undertones of this show

ErinZ (11:48:01 PM): smell is the weirdest sense
ErinZ (11:48:10 PM): sure there's sight, taste, touch
ErinZ (11:48:15 PM): but how the fuck to you explain smell
ErinZ (11:48:43 PM): a bunch of particles floating around that hit some fleshy flaps inside of cartilage and bone, somehow produces this thing called "smell"
Dre (11:48:46 PM): tell me about it
Dre (11:48:54 PM): too bad stevie wonder cant smell
ErinZ (11:49:08 PM): i was just thinking of how if we encountered beings that couldn't smell, how the hell would you explain what it's like to them
ErinZ (11:49:12 PM): seeing you can explain
ErinZ (11:49:16 PM): feeling you can explain
ErinZ (11:49:53 PM): smell just seems like it would be such a difficult thing to comprehend if you didn't know what it was
Dre (11:49:58 PM): this is true
ErinZ (11:50:14 PM): hmmmm
ErinZ (11:50:18 PM): i am very introspective tonight

and how!

ErinZ (11:42:09 PM): everything in the last one felt too abrupt
ErinZ (11:42:21 PM): i feel like i still have one more movie to go
Stweve (11:42:49 PM): one more matrix movie?
ErinZ (11:43:02 PM): yeah
ErinZ (11:43:51 PM): and i don't like how much they dwelled on the new actress for the oracle
ErinZ (11:44:10 PM): if they were going to make such a big deal about her face changing, they should have made her change really drastically
Stweve (11:44:10 PM): i agree
ErinZ (11:44:20 PM): like a white jew or something
Stweve (11:44:30 PM): hahahaha
ErinZ (11:44:34 PM): i found myself trying to remember how the old actress looked different
ErinZ (11:44:50 PM): way too much explanation on that one
ErinZ (11:46:30 PM): it was like inadvertently saying, "the oracle's original actress died. okay? now we're gonna mention it three different times just to assure you that there is someone new playing her. just so you know. because the other one... she died. and now we're trying to make ammends for it. because she died. but don't worry, we're telling you why she looks different now in the matrix universe. it's going to be okay"
ErinZ (11:46:55 PM): the whole time i was just like JESUS FUCK I KNOW ALREADY
Stweve (11:47:19 PM): haha

time line = one of the worst movies ever

i don't know how i got pulled into it but i returned from seeing "timeline" several minutes ago and... wow. i mean..... WOW. it is HORRIBLE. if only we could go back in time to a time when paul walker didn't have an acting career. but the movie was horrible in a really funny way. i highly recommend you and your cohorts dash off to see it immediately. intoxicating substances will most likely enhance the experience as well. gooooo for it

also saw matrix revolutions tonight. while i didn't dislike it, i didn't love it either. i dunno. i stayed sort of neutral throughout the entire thing, not really sure about not being sure how to feel about it. the war in zion was amazing, though. and of course, so was the dragonball z-esque duel between neo and smith. neat stuff all around, although i still think the first one is the best. it just has more of a blue tint to it, which i think suits the matrix universe much better than the green tint they've used for the new films. does that make any sense at all? someone out there must know what i'm talking about.

jammed my fingers in a sliding case door at work. still hurts. also was forced to listen to phil collins for seven hours. REALLY not happy about that one.

hospitality night last night was awesome and believe it or not, nothing bad happened. walked around and saw lots of people, ate burgers and talked nerdy for a majority of the time. a good time to be had indeed

i got a double dose of lambert wilson tonight (the man who plays the merovingian AND some arbitrary french guy in timeline). the guy who played einon from dragonheart was in it too, but i think i was the only one who noticed.

more work tomorrow...